I love my work, love the clients, love it even better when they improve and move on. But you just can’t account for the people you work with. I have always been told I have good instinct, but do I listen to them, NO. I want to make a world where everyone is accepting and get on, are honest and honourable, but occasionally, just occasionally I have to admit that people in this world are not made that way. Ouch that hurt.
What got me so worked up? My manager, I have never taken to her, but in good spirit I put this aside and tried to find ways of accepting her. Inviting her to lunch, to my home to shopping, the feeling still lingers, but I keep pushing it away. A few ago I found out that she has been lying to me on a very basis level and there was really no need for it as I did not broach the subjects, she brought them up. This week she must have been having a bad day, yeh I know I am still trying; she threw a very negative statement at me, which left me reeling, angry, mad. After a very tense discussion to get to root cause, she apologized, and I left letting her know how disappointed I felt. I wanted to accepted that her apology was real, but, reluctantly I have to admit it does not feel that way. So I have given up and accept there is something there that I cannot reach in her, and you know something it feel better, the anger has gone. I can only do what I can, the rest is up to others. But she is just one in a million, there are still a lot of very nice, reasonably, accepting, lovely people out there. What do you say.